Hello

Hi Mom,

So I have so much on my mind that the world is spinning. I am having a baby which is amazing after trying for three long years and then when it finally happens, you are not here. I realize that you are watching over me but it is so not the same. I am pregnant with so many of my close friends that I do have support but it is not you. I act so strong for everyone and for February (this is the name that we have given the baby because I hate the word KID) but sometimes it is just too hard. I really have no one to talk to about this because no one I know has been through this that I would be comfortable enough to talk to. The pregnancy has been an eye opener for me and in that life is just too short for little foolish games. I have learned who my real friends are whether old or new but I now know who is real. I have become quite close with Donna and Debbie which is wonderful, even with the trials in their own life, they find a little time for me. A few others have disappointed me in the last year and that would be the girls. I am not sure what I expected from them with that they have their own lives, children and grandchildren but it is so not the way that I thought it would be. I am not saying that they don't care but that I honestly thought that I would see or speak to them much more and that it would not feel so weird with them. When I do see them it is like old times which is wonderful. Mary is throwing me a baby shower in a few weeks. She is making it a little intimate one and Josee is having a big one in December actually on your birthday which is so cool. Mom, I guess I am telling you this because I have no one else to tell this to that will not judge me for having these ill feelings which are slowly passing but are so hard to shake.

Other things in life are going really well. Dad is really happy which makes me so pleased. He is seeing Annette from Dr V's office. They are so happy. At first I was not ready to see them together but have always been happy for dad. Like always he did not understand what I was feeling and was hurt and angry but with time, things have changed. She has helped him find his smile again which is great. She stands up to him for me so she is good in my books :).

I have spoken to Kirk a few times but am not ready for the introduction of him back into my daily life and I really hope that you understand my reasons. He seems to be doing well which is great.

Steve and I, well we are great. We are getting so excited about February's arrival that it is killing us. We have all the furniture and now just need to paint the room so that we can set it up. The pregnancy is going so well. I was only sick for the first three months. I then got all my energy back. I started feeling flutters about two sundays ago. Hiccups were last weekend and then this weekend, were the kicks and Steve had a chance to feel them too. You should have seen the look on his face. It made me all warm and fuzzy. He is so happy and is going to be a great dad. Through all this happiness, it still kills me that you are not here. You would have been so happy and would have loved shopping for the little peanut. I know that life is not always what we want it to be but it is what it is and we have to live with it and move on. I would ask that you do one big favor and that is to watch over us and help me be at least half the mother you were to me. I love you and miss you so much.

Here are a few photos to enjoy

oxox

Jenna

5 months

Hi Mom,

I feel amazing at 5 months. I sure wish that you were here, love and miss you everyday.

Here is me at 5 months:

BIG NEWS

Hi Mom,

It has been a while since I last wrote to you but I have some wonderful news. We are expecting a baby on February 24th 2009. I feel wonderful. I was nausaus at the beginning but that ended when I was three months. Dad was overjoyed with the news. I have been staying strong but at times it is so hard. I know that you are guiding me but it is not the same with out you here. My friends who are pregnant, have their moms to help with stuff so it sucks for that reason. STeve is amazing and has been so supportive that I can't complain but again not the same. I just know that you would have loved shopping for this little peanut. Dad would have cut you off I am sure by now and I am only 4 1/2 months. It is wonderful as I am pregnant with Rachel Leblanc which is so nice and has brought us closer. She is 7 weeks ahead of me. Others who are pregnant and will be on Mat leave with me are; Melissa, Amanda, Amanda, Sherri, Christine, Lise, and Veronique. There was something in the water for sure. We go for an ultrasound this friday so we are pretty excited about that. I will keep you posted on everything. I love you and miss you everyday.

xox

Jenna

Here is a picture of me with my belly:

Happy Mother;s day

Happy Mother's day mom!!!

The flowers may fade but many memories were made. Happy Mother's Day Mom! We love and miss you everyday. XOXO Jenna and Steve

So I just closed my fundraiser at $2156 which is double what i had hoped for so I am so happy. I am going in for my mini surgery next week so things will be on track again.

I have heard things are not good with Kirk but it is only word of mouth as I still have not seen or heard from him. Dad is doing well.

Here is an updated picture of our baby, you would have loved her.

I love you MOM

J

Happy Easter Mom!!!

My buddy telling Steve to stop working on HIS time!!!



Hi Mom,


Easter was this passed weekend! It was a wonderful weekend. Steve and I bought a scrabble game and also a card game called Skipo which we played while we were in Cuba with Brett and Vero. We cleaned up the back room and I reorganized the daycare. Things are going so well with that. I am up to 5 chlidren with another 10 on a waiting list so things are going smoothly. We have a lot of work to do to the yard this summer because of the pool but we are ready for it.





We are taking Summer to Dog school! She is the top of her class, ok so I am bias but ain't we all about our kids. You would love her she is so freaking cute. She does keep us busy though.





Here are a few new pictures of our baby and a short little video of her special dance:

So you would have totally hated winter 2007-2008 as we got over something like 400 cm of snow. Absolutely nuts! Here are some pictures to show you:

Hi Mom!!!

The fab Four
No toilet seat, you would have hated this
Don't we look cute
Aint she pretty and a total sweetie
GReat waves

Dear Mom,



So I know that we have not talked in a while but been super busy. I started selling Pampered Chef and I just love it. The daycare is going really well and i am really enjoying it.



Dad is doing very well. We are planning a week in the motor home up to the Sandbanks. He misses you like crazy but he is being strong. We see him about three times a week usually.



I have not seen Kirk myself but hear that he is doing well. He lives in an apt on his own. He did although try to contact dad and dad is just not ready so it was not too pretty. Steve and I were not there so we only heard about it. We actually were in Toronto seeing what you and I had been waiting for, Dirty Dancing the musical. It was great but not the same with out. The Sound of Music is coming out next year so i am hoping to go.



STeve and I are doing great. We just got back from a trip to Cuba. We went with Brett and His Girlfriend Veronique. Yes I mean Brett Savard. I know a name from the past. Actually we are a great foursome now. Some one else I ran into t his week was Dimples. He is married and has two beautiful daughters. He is still handsome and a sweetheart. He told me that his mom is up in Heaven too so maybe you could meet.



Mom,



Things still don't feel real but I am holding strong. I miss you and think of you EVERY day.



Love you forever



Jenna

One year ago today, I lost my bestfriend!

Our Stag October 2005

Montebello 2004
Christmas 2004
Mother's Day 2005
Best Friends Forever

Just a few good times captured in picture.

MUNRO (Drain), Blanche December 6, 1948 - January 3, 2007 It was a year ago today That you drifted away. We may be worlds apart, But you remain deep in our heart. We love and miss you everyday. XOXO Jenna and Steve. Published in the Ottawa Citizen on 1/3/2008.

MUNRO (Drain), Blanche December 6, 1948 - January 3, 2007 Gone but not forgotten. Always in my heart. Not a day goes by That I don't miss you. Loving you always, Your husband Denis. Published in the Ottawa Citizen on 1/3/2008.

It was one year ago that you went up to heaven. I miss you and all that we were to each other. Things are good with the family. The boys have not spoken but in time and there is a positive that is that they are both happy and healthy. I still have not spoken to Kirk but hear that he is doing well. Steve and I are going to Cuba in 22 days which is so exciting. We are traveling with Brett and his girlfriend who has become a really good friend. With the new year, I have decided to focus on the good and leave out the bad so let's hope that it works.

Josee is doing well, she has a wonderful man in her life that treats her right and that she loves. She still loves Quebec. We are going to the carnival with her when we get back from Cuba.

Watch over us and keep us safe.

We love and miss you terribly.

ox

Jenna